IN MY TWENTIES...

Call me Eve. I am your girl next door. That girl that is charming with older folks. I am easy to talk to. i do believe I am okay when it comes to looks and figures. My mind however…my mind. It runs overtime. All the time. I do like thinking, but I rarely share my thoughts with people. I am kind of shy when it comes to my intelligence. I think it works differently. And I am saying that with a very straight face. So, could you be my audience? Step into my crazy world for a bit…especially in my twenties. The years that shape one’s life.

So, I am two years in at the moment. i am not happy with what it is, but I am working on it. So, I am that kid that was raised by a teacher. If you were in my position in Kenya, you know that education meant EVERYTHING. So I did my best. Still am, actually. Getting good grades, being at the top of some of my classes. Only, I came to realize that education is not everything. Do not misquote me. It is essential, but I think along the way  someone forgot to teach me some basic life skills, talk to me about boys, teach me how to put my make up on. I even knew how to have fun and let go just a few years ago. Basically, along the way, I forgot how to find myself.

So, at the moment, I am basically going through quarter life crisis. Everything expects something of me. When I was in my teen years, I thought I would be owning this b**ch. I thought that I would have a super cool apartment, you know, like  those with the super large windows because I am a sucker for class. I would be driving this really fancy car, have several investments in land, stocks, apartments, and still ace my studies at the time. Hahahahahaha.  I still believe in having all that, but you see the problem with that?? Right there… there was no actual plan of how I would get there.

That’s not all….my career…I literally do not know what I am going to pursue. I mean, I major in something…engineering. But I learnt when I was too deep into it that it actually is not my thing. I struggle a bit in my studies, I find my lectures really boring, I basically do not care for it that much. I have picked up some things here and there, I have a bit of a sharp brain, but I recently discovered I actually have a knack for people and relationships. But what to do exactly, that I am not sure.

Don’t get me wrong. I am not complaining. I just want you to see that you are not the only one lost in between the cracks of this big world.  That place that you are in where you are not even sure anymore who you are. Everyone expects you to be confident in yourself but you still have some insecurities you need to work through. You once had a defined style, now you want this one day and something else another day. It’s just a mess everyone. Anyway, those are my thoughts at the moment…it really is something in my twenties.